Thursday, 6 July 2017

Rant | I Did Like K-Pop, so You Don't Have to

anything I do, I do it for oppa - that means : MORE PHOTOCARDS!!

If you’re seeing a lot of K-pop-ish posts on my social media handlers, and decided to befriended me because “ah my god, we’re on the same fandom!” or even “we have lots in common!”; first thing first: I’m sorry I’ve been leaving the fandom for… well, probably since April 2017.  Actually, that’s not fully implying that I’m stopping my obsession over the whole K-culture (and probably never). I’m still in love with Korea (especially K-hip hop). I am still saving money to go to South Korea and saving the learn korea-ish app on my phone. So, readers, here’s why I’m leaving the K-pop fandom :

I always love learning another cultures, but this time… immersing in K-pop culture is a bit challenging and not as cool as used to



1. K-pop is not as cool as used to
Believe me, I used to a huge K-pop fan in 2009 (probably until 2010, I don’t remember). I’m a big fan of TVXQ, Rain, and The Grace. The Grace, oh my god. I only knew one song but I’m OBSESSED (fyi I just found  한번 더, OK? on YouTube here and oh god, jamming to it was LIT!). Okay, back to the topic. Then, I’m not a K-pop fan for almost 7 years but here I am. But, this I don’t know what generation it is, but I admit, it’s not as lit as used to. 


I feel like today’s K-pop is just merely “entertainment” and formulated [...]but today’s K-pop is like.. unnatural. Not only the music itself, the dance, the visuals, and even the fandom feels like too formulated.  


Most of you will probably like “you are a fake fan. You’re leaving and then come back, so you’re a fake fan”, okay, I get it. In May 2016, I came back to the K-pop fandom because of Block B and BTS. K-pop had my attention again because of their chillwave-ish music, which I currently dig. Howeeeverrrrrr… this only lasts like one year. I feel like today’s K-pop is just merely “entertainment” and formulated. I know, I learnt cultural studies and probably pointing out that pop culture is a – sorry – capitalist culture (and I know how it works), but today’s K-pop is like.. unnatural. Not only the music itself, the dance, the visuals, and even the fandom feels like too formulated.  

“Okay, the fandom feels unnatural? What does even mean?”
I feel like the fandom is not “pure fans”. The news, fancafe, weibo, or any fan board discussions probably filled with “paid fans”. Before I pointed this out, I admit I really really appreciating fansite-noonas, but I feel like these fansites sometimes are just taking pictures for their own profit : they just taking pictures of “recent-famous” idols and claimed that they’re a fan but actually.. not. Furthermore, I found that the fandom are recently filled with those who are too lazy to explore more in K-pop world and just filled with… wannabes.

I’ve heard some Korean fans that created cute merch like dolls and held an international pre-orders. However, she just ran away and took the money away with her. 

2. M. O. N. E.Y 
I know, I know, you guys will probably roll your eyes and stopped reading. 
Today’s K-pop merch are amazing and innovative, to be honest. Not only from the official sellers, but also from the fans! The designs are cute and it’s not only t-shirts anymore : pins, bottles, clear photocards, dolls (man, I sucked at dolls. The dolls are too cute and collectable), phone case-strap, iRing, pop-sockets… man, you named it. 

dressed the doll (yup you can dressed and undressed em tho), go out and find k-restaurant, take a picture, put it on K-doll account, put it under hangul-ish caption, and voila!

But, today’s k-pop feels like it’s all about money. Not only from the big-corporate, but also the fans. 
Fun fact :
- I’ve heard some Korean fans that created cute merch like dolls and held an internationa pre-orders. However, she just ran away and took the money away with her. 
- I’ve also heard a lot of fraud cases that has been conducted by some K-online shops in Indonesia. 
(I'm so sorry I can't find the news for these cases because it's been posted on LINE Official Account and it's a long time ago, so... it's hard to find the news :")

So, my friend had been stomped on during the concert and when she cried for help, NOBODY HELPS HER.


And here’s my very personal reason. 
I always love learning another cultures, but this time… immersing in K-pop culture is a bit challenging and not as cool as used to. I’m a huge fan of Bangtan Sonyeondan (BTS) and I’m a bit lazy to meet other fans due to my own picky reasons like OTP or even merch preference. I’m in love with Bangtan because of their amazing hardworks, passionate about their stuff, and definitely – their music. But, it stopped because :

1.) I’ve been attacked by “new fans” (usually the fans that  “Army” – Bangtan Sonyeondan’s fandom name –  on their username but mentioned that they’re only liked two members). A lot. I’ve been attacked on the Internet just because I took a stand for Kim Seokjin, I also attacked by offline (again) new fans that I met FACE TO FACE just because I told her that Kim Namjoon is indeed awesome. 

Meet mini-Jungkook! Isn't he cute? :3

2.) Bangtan’s WINGS Tour in Jakarta – April 2017. Gosh. Despite of its too pricey-ness, the pre-event issue got me cringe. A child of a celebrity had been bullied a lot just because she gaveaway some free tickets for Army. A lot of people had been pointing out that she’s cheating like whaaaaaaaaaaaaa???
 I’ve been bullied during my elementary school years, and I know what she felt, okay? She refused to go to school for two days and crying non-stop like how dare you, guys? Since this one, people sees ARMYs negatively and, me, as an ARMY, I feel so ashamed. Bangtan taught us to love everyone and having beautiful friendships, but weyhey ARMY lol. (I couldn't find the news about this issue in English, but you can read this and translate this to google translate - sorry!)  

3.) A story from my friend : Bangtan’s WINGS Tour in Bangkok – March 2017. Again: The fans. So, my friend had been stomped on during the concert and when she cried for help, NOBODY HELPS HER. It’s a K-pop concert, everyone. I repeat, IT’S A K-POP CONCERT WITH HIGH PRICE BUT NOBODY HELPS MY FRIEND THAT HAD BEEN PUSHED, FELL ON THE GROUND AND STOMPED ON? Okay, I’m sorry for the caps because I’m still mad at that. As a result, she lost her bag (that had her passport, wallet, and phone) and lost her glasses – but, no worries, she found it anyway. And what made me really mad is Jungkook saw her gotten stomped by thousands of people yet he just kept singing, not stopped the concert like what I’ve read in the news. Really, Jeon Jungkook?

My friend that got stomped in Bangkok happily brought the WINGS Tour fan-project handbanner for me!!! Yas! 

So, there, you have it.
I know I probably getting a lot of hateful e-mails after this, but I’m okay. I’m so sorry to any K-pop fans out there. I just can’t sit and not telling this to everyone about my feeling until it’s overwhelmed me so much. Like a bathroom or even a car when you just locked yourself and cried and pour out your feelings all by yourself, this blog is the little space that I had but – for everyone. 

I’m still in love with Korean culture and listening to K-music, though. Hit me up if you’re want to talk about K-stuff, I’m down! :) 

I don’t mean to hurt anybody.
Love you.
-Aya ❤

Thanks to : 
- all my K-pop fans fellow, especially “unnies slamdunk” that discussed about “Why K-Pop is not lit anymore” 
- special thanks to mbak Ria, this one comes from your story in Bangkok. I’m still sending thoughts and hugs.

*Yup, all of the pictures are mine and my (used to be) collection. The pictures may be found on another account in Instagram under handler  babykumii - actually, that's my account too :DDD Now look at what happened to my dolls :DDD

Thursday, 1 June 2017

Post-College Life #2 : Creating Dreams, Living in a Dream

the city keeps growing in fast pace, so do you - umm, do you?

The blog hasn't ceased yet, my lovely readers! How are you?

Another huge huge apologize for long long incognito. The story of post-college life hasn't done yet, fellas. I'm still busy preparing something big (I promise, I will tell you guys soon what it is), here and there with videography projects though. So, here I am, sitting in front of my laptop, pouring all of my minds, hoping that everyone that just been graduated/has been graduated/will graduate soon/graduated a year ago are surviving the thoughness of post-college life : here it is - a PCL series!

[...] Here's my answer : just say yes. Be optimistic, instead of realistic. 


First thing first, because I would like to talk about dreams, please sit back and relax while listening to my dreamy Spotify playlist below. It contains of 133 songs, sung by artists from a lot of countries with different languages and unique music. I made this playlist since May 2016 and it grows a lot, and still my favourite. I suggest to put it on shuffle mode to feel the magic :)
So, have you played it? If you don't want to listen, it's fine. It's not mandatory :) 
Okay, back to our worth one billion question : where do we go from here? 

People are always ask you about what you are going to do after you graduated. Getting a good job, taking a master degree, taking care of your family business, making a mixtape, just taking a gap year to travel anywhere... Anything. But, admit it, do you know where to start? Are you ready to take the risk? Are you ready to fail? Here's my answer : just say yes. Be optimistic, instead of realistic. 

Whatever you dreamed of, just do it. Here's some of questions that probably always come up and how to solve it :

How if I failed? 
If you failed, it was just the beginning. It doesn't mean that you're fucked up, believe me, there's something better ahead that waits for you. Keep trying! Find another way, talk to people.

Then, what about those people that just only depending on their lucks?
Believe me, if you worked hard and setting your goals, you will be more managed. Another benefit of setting your goals is when you tell it to your friends or families, they will support you. Then, you'll get motivated. 

If you failed, it was just the beginning. It doesn't mean that you're fucked up, believe me, there's something better ahead that waits for you. Keep trying! Find another way, talk to people. 

How about the barriers like money and probably, people that tries to bring you down? 
If you really want to do something, believe me, you will find the way. You will find the good and appropriate way to earn money (no cheats, please). About those people that tries to bring you down, don't listen to them. Don't focus on reach your dreams just to show them that you can do it. Reach your dreams for your own good. Don't try to look back or even try to prove someone.

How if... I changed my dreams.... What are people going to say about it? 
Stop thinking about what others think. If you changed your dreams, it's fine. You know, dreams changing as you're getting older. As you're getting older, you know more about where are you going. It's okay that you started it from zero.

Speaking of dreams, I actually don't have a bigger goal ahead. Can you help me to create one?
Just do something you love and live it! If you like drawing, just sell them, earn money from it. Here's the crucial advice from me : never. ever. doing. what. others. do.
Just find something that you really like. If you think that you're totally newbie of it, improve your skill. If you can't afford a school or even a course, go to YouTube and buy some books about it. Believe me, it's worth it.

Stop thinking about what others think. If you changed your dreams, it's fine. You know, dreams changing as you're getting older. As you're getting older, you know more about where are you going.

Now.. How to get motivated?
Make a list, put your dreams anywhere in your desk, put your dreams in your journal, write a journal. 

But, in making your dreams, don't be too ambitious! Remember about the people surrounds you, thanked them. And don't forget to always prioritize your family ❤

and believe me, dreams are like stars. You may never touch them, but if you follow them, they will lead to your destiny. Now, go ahead, GERONIMOOO!!!


Good luck in creating your dreams!
-Aya ❤

P.S : 
- (hopefully) there will be another post for PCL series and probably the final one. Hint : it's about the job life. I will try to post it soon.
-  if you have something to ask or even asking for help in your careers, just hit me up on my e-mail.