Thursday, 14 September 2017

Heroines Galore : Fictional Characters are Realistically Inspiring

Fictional Characters are Realistically Inspiring - says the girl that reads a lot and weeping about dying fictional characters, pining over a cute fictional characters in a movie and getting irritated when somebody says "hey, it's fictional characters. So, get over it." Yeah.


so many books, so... hard to pick my favourite characters. 
Yup that's me. I'm that girl. 
HI AGAIN. 
Hahaha sorry for all caps but look, when was the last post? Right, July. I'm really sorry I've abandoned this little space again since yup, life after university is really overwhelming. I really hope you guys forgive me (again) hehe. 

Okay so, if you guys been following my Twitter, I was came up with long a** tweets about my personal favourite heroines and I've been changing my full name to Asteria again (read the tweet thread here ). So, readers, here it is.

First thing first, what is heroine?
According to English by Oxford Living Dictionary, heroine is a woman admired for her courage, outstanding achievements, or noble qualities; The chief female character in a book, play, or film, who is typically identified with good qualities, and with whom the reader is expected to sympathize; (in mythology and folklore) a woman of superhuman qualities and often semi-divine origin, in particular one whose deeds were the subject of ancient Greek myths. To be conclude, heroine is the protagonist from book, play, or film, a very motivational woman. 

Some of you are probably prefer looking up to your mother as your inspiration or so on, but some of you are also having fictional heroine as your inspiration. You do you, guys.

Since, this admired women come from any media, I'm going to break this essay into some parts. Today, we're going to talk about the fictional ones. Probably next time, I'm going to talk about the real women. 

Then, do we need a fictional heroine as our inspirations?
This question is of course, highly undoubtedly personal. Most of us can't find what's so inspiring about fictional heroines. To be honest, I'm kind of having a hard time to accept comic book heroines because they are usually portrayed to wear sexy clothes, or even expected to be seductive. Well, a little Aya story, I'm having love-hate relationship with Marvel. I used to huge Marvel stan. I even read Captain America, Iron Man, and collecting e-books of it. Later on, I felt like the lack of heroines make me kind of losing my interest towards Marvel. Long story short, I'm back again to Marvel stuff - now let's get back into the topic. 

Some of you are probably prefer looking up to your mother as your inspiration or so on, but some of you are also having fictional heroine as your inspiration. You do you, guys. 

Okay, I choose Scout Finch. Not like usual women writers that depict their female protagonist(s) as emotional, fragile, and nurturing.. Harper Lee depicts this girl is intelligent, VERY BADASS - when she beats up a guy in order to defense her father, honest, and confident in her own skin - she doesn't listen to anyone who asks her to wear skirts


Jumping into the actual aim of why I wrote this, okay, so, who are the fictional heroines that I looking up to? 
From childhood Disney's Mulan, To Kill a Mockingbird (1960)'s Scout, the Breakfast at Tiffany' s Holly Golightly in the movie until Alaska Young (Looking for Alaska, 2005) and so on, one that I have a soft spot in mind is Srikandi.

Srikandi, in Javanese Wayang version was portrayed as the only woman that mastered in archery, even in charge to be responsible over the security of Madukara. She's also the only woman that joined the Bharatayuddha war. I found Srikandi from my mother's flashdisk name and asked her why she chose "Srikandi". I also find out some of her academic essays about women are also mentioning her a lot. Then, my mom told me that she's really admired Srikandi and voila, I'm also looking up to Srikandi too. 

From novels, I really look up into Scout, a character from Harper Lee's To Kill a Mockingbird (1960). Scout, she's six year old. I'm mesmerized by how brave she is and how smart she is. As I quoted from my old Instagram picture back in April 2015Okay, I choose Scout Finch. Not like usual women writers that depict their female protagonist(s) as emotional, fragile, and nurturing.. Harper Lee depicts this girl is intelligent, VERY BADASS - when she beats up a guy in order to defense her father, honest, and confident in her own skin - she doesn't listen to anyone who asks her to wear skirts😁 

As a girl that really into pop literary works, from today's heroines in literary works.. I admit I couldn't find one. Today's heroines are always depicted as "broken but badass" women, and it's eventually leads to revenge. I mean, come on... Women aren't that "doing-this-for-revenge"! Most women even needs a hero, so that's what she's became, right? 

Okay, okay, back to the topic. Nowadays, I'm really more into Marvel's Silk, the friend (or should I say fellow web-slinger?) of SpiderMan. I'm not kind of buying the "woman version of Spider-Man" (and those effin dates come on, parker) and things, but oh god she's just so badass : she's getting through anxiety, and oh god. She's just too awesome. I just can't wait to (spoiler alert) to see what's going ahead of her in Watt's SpiderMan movies reboot woop woop .

The last thing is the answer that you've been waiting for - Asteria. You've probably been seeing this name in almost my social media handlers but here's the long explanation. Asteria is the female lead of Madeon's "Adventure" music video trilogy. Yeah.. it's music video. Really. Asteria, as what Madeon defines as "wants to see the world beyond the city" in "You're On" behind the scene video here. However, the depiction of Asteria that wanders through the city to find the "other world" is pretty relating to me - right now. There's something amazing that how Asteria, as a female lead, being curious, wanders, and creative. Although, the trilogy keeps me left with so many questions on the last video because I want to know Asteria more. Of course, the videos were about the journey of Asteria and Icarus to find the unamed other world. 

So, there you have it.
Before this weird post getting any further and getting bored, I'm leaving this weirdness here. 

So, who's your inspiring fictional characters?
Love, love,
-Aya ❤


Thursday, 6 July 2017

Rant | I Did Like K-Pop, so You Don't Have to

anything I do, I do it for oppa - that means : MORE PHOTOCARDS!!

If you’re seeing a lot of K-pop-ish posts on my social media handlers, and decided to befriended me because “ah my god, we’re on the same fandom!” or even “we have lots in common!”; first thing first: I’m sorry I’ve been leaving the fandom for… well, probably since April 2017.  Actually, that’s not fully implying that I’m stopping my obsession over the whole K-culture (and probably never). I’m still in love with Korea (especially K-hip hop). I am still saving money to go to South Korea and saving the learn korea-ish app on my phone. So, readers, here’s why I’m leaving the K-pop fandom :

I always love learning another cultures, but this time… immersing in K-pop culture is a bit challenging and not as cool as used to



1. K-pop is not as cool as used to
Believe me, I used to a huge K-pop fan in 2009 (probably until 2010, I don’t remember). I’m a big fan of TVXQ, Rain, and The Grace. The Grace, oh my god. I only knew one song but I’m OBSESSED (fyi I just found  한번 더, OK? on YouTube here and oh god, jamming to it was LIT!). Okay, back to the topic. Then, I’m not a K-pop fan for almost 7 years but here I am. But, this I don’t know what generation it is, but I admit, it’s not as lit as used to. 


I feel like today’s K-pop is just merely “entertainment” and formulated [...]but today’s K-pop is like.. unnatural. Not only the music itself, the dance, the visuals, and even the fandom feels like too formulated.  


Most of you will probably like “you are a fake fan. You’re leaving and then come back, so you’re a fake fan”, okay, I get it. In May 2016, I came back to the K-pop fandom because of Block B and BTS. K-pop had my attention again because of their chillwave-ish music, which I currently dig. Howeeeverrrrrr… this only lasts like one year. I feel like today’s K-pop is just merely “entertainment” and formulated. I know, I learnt cultural studies and probably pointing out that pop culture is a – sorry – capitalist culture (and I know how it works), but today’s K-pop is like.. unnatural. Not only the music itself, the dance, the visuals, and even the fandom feels like too formulated.  

“Okay, the fandom feels unnatural? What does even mean?”
I feel like the fandom is not “pure fans”. The news, fancafe, weibo, or any fan board discussions probably filled with “paid fans”. Before I pointed this out, I admit I really really appreciating fansite-noonas, but I feel like these fansites sometimes are just taking pictures for their own profit : they just taking pictures of “recent-famous” idols and claimed that they’re a fan but actually.. not. Furthermore, I found that the fandom are recently filled with those who are too lazy to explore more in K-pop world and just filled with… wannabes.

I’ve heard some Korean fans that created cute merch like dolls and held an international pre-orders. However, she just ran away and took the money away with her. 

2. M. O. N. E.Y 
I know, I know, you guys will probably roll your eyes and stopped reading. 
Today’s K-pop merch are amazing and innovative, to be honest. Not only from the official sellers, but also from the fans! The designs are cute and it’s not only t-shirts anymore : pins, bottles, clear photocards, dolls (man, I sucked at dolls. The dolls are too cute and collectable), phone case-strap, iRing, pop-sockets… man, you named it. 

dressed the doll (yup you can dressed and undressed em tho), go out and find k-restaurant, take a picture, put it on K-doll account, put it under hangul-ish caption, and voila!

But, today’s k-pop feels like it’s all about money. Not only from the big-corporate, but also the fans. 
Fun fact :
- I’ve heard some Korean fans that created cute merch like dolls and held an internationa pre-orders. However, she just ran away and took the money away with her. 
- I’ve also heard a lot of fraud cases that has been conducted by some K-online shops in Indonesia. 
(I'm so sorry I can't find the news for these cases because it's been posted on LINE Official Account and it's a long time ago, so... it's hard to find the news :")

So, my friend had been stomped on during the concert and when she cried for help, NOBODY HELPS HER.


And here’s my very personal reason. 
I always love learning another cultures, but this time… immersing in K-pop culture is a bit challenging and not as cool as used to. I’m a huge fan of Bangtan Sonyeondan (BTS) and I’m a bit lazy to meet other fans due to my own picky reasons like OTP or even merch preference. I’m in love with Bangtan because of their amazing hardworks, passionate about their stuff, and definitely – their music. But, it stopped because :

1.) I’ve been attacked by “new fans” (usually the fans that  “Army” – Bangtan Sonyeondan’s fandom name –  on their username but mentioned that they’re only liked two members). A lot. I’ve been attacked on the Internet just because I took a stand for Kim Seokjin, I also attacked by offline (again) new fans that I met FACE TO FACE just because I told her that Kim Namjoon is indeed awesome. 

Meet mini-Jungkook! Isn't he cute? :3

2.) Bangtan’s WINGS Tour in Jakarta – April 2017. Gosh. Despite of its too pricey-ness, the pre-event issue got me cringe. A child of a celebrity had been bullied a lot just because she gaveaway some free tickets for Army. A lot of people had been pointing out that she’s cheating like whaaaaaaaaaaaaa???
 I’ve been bullied during my elementary school years, and I know what she felt, okay? She refused to go to school for two days and crying non-stop like how dare you, guys? Since this one, people sees ARMYs negatively and, me, as an ARMY, I feel so ashamed. Bangtan taught us to love everyone and having beautiful friendships, but weyhey ARMY lol. (I couldn't find the news about this issue in English, but you can read this and translate this to google translate - sorry!)  

3.) A story from my friend : Bangtan’s WINGS Tour in Bangkok – March 2017. Again: The fans. So, my friend had been stomped on during the concert and when she cried for help, NOBODY HELPS HER. It’s a K-pop concert, everyone. I repeat, IT’S A K-POP CONCERT WITH HIGH PRICE BUT NOBODY HELPS MY FRIEND THAT HAD BEEN PUSHED, FELL ON THE GROUND AND STOMPED ON? Okay, I’m sorry for the caps because I’m still mad at that. As a result, she lost her bag (that had her passport, wallet, and phone) and lost her glasses – but, no worries, she found it anyway. And what made me really mad is Jungkook saw her gotten stomped by thousands of people yet he just kept singing, not stopped the concert like what I’ve read in the news. Really, Jeon Jungkook?

My friend that got stomped in Bangkok happily brought the WINGS Tour fan-project handbanner for me!!! Yas! 

So, there, you have it.
I know I probably getting a lot of hateful e-mails after this, but I’m okay. I’m so sorry to any K-pop fans out there. I just can’t sit and not telling this to everyone about my feeling until it’s overwhelmed me so much. Like a bathroom or even a car when you just locked yourself and cried and pour out your feelings all by yourself, this blog is the little space that I had but – for everyone. 

I’m still in love with Korean culture and listening to K-music, though. Hit me up if you’re want to talk about K-stuff, I’m down! :) 

I don’t mean to hurt anybody.
Love you.
-Aya ❤

Thanks to : 
- all my K-pop fans fellow, especially “unnies slamdunk” that discussed about “Why K-Pop is not lit anymore” 
- special thanks to mbak Ria, this one comes from your story in Bangkok. I’m still sending thoughts and hugs.

*Yup, all of the pictures are mine and my (used to be) collection. The pictures may be found on another account in Instagram under handler  babykumii - actually, that's my account too :DDD Now look at what happened to my dolls :DDD